not an hour goes by that i don't think of the little peanut growing inside me.
it feels surreal.
besides the general achiness, intermittent nausea & the bloating from HELL...i feel like me. but i have a secret! it's so weird to talk to people right now. i feel like i'm almost lying to them. but i sure don't want everyone to know quite yet. however, i'm dying inside with anticipation. i can't wait to tell my family. it's funny because ruthie was just out here last week and i didn't know yet. i'll be 12 weeks around thanksgiving so i think i'm going to try to wait til then to tell my family, kate & mike's family. it's soooo hard though. a couple of my girlfriends know here, but otherwise i want to just make sure everything turns out okay first.
i've been having some mild cramping, almost like i'm going to start my period. and some intermittent spotting. so i'm kind of worried about miscarrying.
but i'm overwhelmingly just elated. i can't stop thinking about the fact that mike & i made a baby and it's deep inside me right now. but it has a heartbeat. i love the little peanut already.
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