can't sleep!

my ultrasound is tomorrow, and we get to find out if baby A is a boy or a girl peanut.

i cannot go to sleep tonight despite getting up super early for work this morning (hello 5 o'clock hour) and early tomorrow morning too.  i don't care if i have toothpicks in my eyes in the morning because come 12:30pm i'll be laying on a table and waiting for the biggest news of this pregnancy so far.  except maybe, those two lines :)

i've felt like peanut is a boy since the day i found out i was pregnant.  lots of people even have told me the way i'm carrying - ALL out front - that it's a boy.  i've even referred a lot to "him" - mostly because i don't like calling the baby "it."  but then last week i had two dreams that it was a girl.  probably just proof that i actually have no idea, and no control.  i always hate when people say "i don't care, as long as they're healthy" when asked which gender they prefer.  but now i'm saying the same thing.  i think in some ways i'll be shocked either way...i really have no idea what i'm carrying...and i truly will be thrilled either way.  it's an amazing feeling to know that i'd love a girl baby & i'd love a boy baby.

we can't lose either way.

so baby A - show your stuff tomorrow!!

p.s. the movement every day that i'm feeling is crazier than i expected.  last night i laid in bed with my tummy bare, watching my baby kick visibly.  coolest thing ever.  i'm addicted to feeling him or her stretch and turn and live inside me.